Running no more, I want to walk with you

I imagine just spending wonderful days with you. When I say wonderful, good and bad, to better and worse and the best and the worst. I daydream of being with you in different places where we will together see how beautifully the world was made. I reckon the laughs you will share with me would be so lovely. Laughing with you is always lovely you know. It's priceless. Just thinking about it makes me smile now. Finally, Courage decided to pay a visit and well here I am. Welcome home. I promise to respect the difference of this relationship from my first love. You know how tough that road was. It's still a miracle to be here now. But this feeling's so strong to need some "sexy time"(inside joke right there haha). So darling, let's go? :)

VOID

EVERYDAY, YOU BATTLE THE ITCH OF WANTING TO BE CONNECTED. IT IS THE SAME ROUTINE. YOU WAKE UP, EAT, CHECK YOUR SOCIAL NETWORKIN ACCOUNTS AND SCAN FOR STUFF YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT. TRYING TO GRASP WHERE YOU BELONG, YOU SWIM INTO THE OCEAN OF UPDATES OF SAME SOULS WHO ARE JUST LIKE YOU. LONELY. I BELIEVE, SATAN REALLY HAVE DONE THIS VERY WELL THIS TIME. I DO NOT WANT TO SOUND ANYWHER NEAR DRAMATIC BUT LET ME TELL YOU SOMETHING, EVERYTHING I WILL B SAYING WILL BE COMING FROM A LOST HEART WHO IS HOPING AND PRAYING THAT THIS COULD HELP ME GET TO SOMEWHERE. ANYTHING BUT EMPTINESS.
I GO THROUGH DAYS JUS TRYING TO UNDERSTAND HOW SIMPLE YET COMPLEX EVERYTHING IS NOW, NOWADAYS. WONDERING IF I AM ALONE IN THIS REALIZATION, I END UP CONVINCING MYSELF THAT I AM TRULY ALONE. I THINK IT IS ALWAYS BETTER LIKE THAT. THE IDEA DROWNS ME TO AN ABYSS OF BITTRNESS AND PAIN SO I TRY TO GRAB ON WHATEVER THAT WIL BRING SALVATION. ANDTHE EASIEST SALVATION THERE IS, SOCIAL NETWORKING SITES. THESE BRING ME TO A PLACE WHER I FEEL I BELONG BUT COMPLETELY AM NOT. A SENSE OF SATISFACTION, UNBELIEVABLY, IS PROVIDED. THE UNLASTING KIND, THOUGH.
 I DIVE INTO MILLIONS OF PHOTOS OF PEOPLE I KNOW, I'VE MET AND DON'T HAE A CLUE ABOUT BUT I JUST DIVE IN. FROM MINUTES TO HOURS, I JUST IMMERSE MYSELF ON THESE IDEAS OF WHO THESE PEOPLE ARE. ON THE OTHER HAND, I USUALLY CATCH A GLIMPSE OF MY NIECE WATCHING HI-5, I WOULD SMILE AND DIVE IN AGAIN.  WAVE AFTR WAVE OF UNENDING UPDATES I JUS, FOR SOME REASON, WANT TO KNOW IS ROUGHLY ENTERTAINING.THEN, FROM TIME TO TIME MY NIECE WOULD TELL ME SOMETHING REALLY ADORABLE BUT I WOULDN'T REMEMBER WHAT IT IS BUT I'M CERTAIN THAT I SMILE AT HER.AT THE END OF THE DAY, I WOULD LOOK BACK AND END UP EXHAUSTED MENTALLY AND EMOTIONALLY. SURPISING, ISN'T IT? HOW SIMPLE THE DAY WENT BUT HOW COMPLEX THE END IS.
I HONESTLY STILL HAVE NOT COME UP WITH THE SOLUTION TO THIS UNFORTUNATE PARTICULAR SORCERY BUT I DREAM OF RESURRECTION FROM THIS OCEAN OF DISCONNECTION. IWANT TO BE WITH THE PEOPLE I LOVE, EVERYDAY IF POSSIBLE AND REALLY CONNECT WITH THEM. I WANT T KNOW THAT WE ARE STILL BREATHING THE SAME AIR NOT JUST SWIMMING IN THE SAME SEA. I DON'T KNOW IF YOU GET WHAT I MEAN. I JUST FEAR OF REGRETS BECAUSE THAT IS THE ROOT OF UNHAPPINESS. IF SATAN HAS DONE IT GOOD THIS TIME TO ELIMINATE REAL (AGAIN, REAL) RELATIONSHIPS AMONGST PEOPLE, THE MORE WE HAVE TO CLING ON AND BE DEPENDENT ON OUR GLORIOUS GOD. HOW DO WE DO THIS? I TRULY DON'T KNOW. I JUST PRAY.

Indifference

I do not remember when it began. I do not know how. But I do know why.
Truly, the opposite of love is not hate yet rather, indifference.
To the half of my being

To better choices!